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04/23/11--02:05: Goodnight. (chan 2112470)

Goodnight.




04/23/11--23:56: This honestly sucks.. (chan 2112470)

This honestly sucks..




04/24/11--14:09: “Everything will be ok” I tell myself that every night, every morning, and every time I... (chan 2112470)

“Everything will be ok”

I tell myself that every night, every morning, and every time I get sad. Does it help? 

Not really..




04/24/11--14:20: Finally got my Sick Star shirt I ordered (chan 2112470)





Finally got my Sick Star shirt I ordered




04/24/11--15:16: Photo (chan 2112470)






04/24/11--23:05: sigh.. (chan 2112470)

sigh..




04/25/11--12:07: :/ (chan 2112470)




04/25/11--18:10: My homie Beast Boy and I battling at Breaking The Law 8 (chan 2112470)





My homie Beast Boy and I battling at Breaking The Law 8




04/25/11--22:28: A photo shoot I modeled for  (chan 2112470)





A photo shoot I modeled for 




04/25/11--22:30: Photo (chan 2112470)






04/25/11--22:42: Photo (chan 2112470)






04/25/11--23:35: I’m there. (chan 2112470)

I’m there.




04/26/11--11:30: Thunder (chan 2112470)

:/




04/26/11--16:42: My days get worse and worse :/  (chan 2112470)

My days get worse and worse :/ 




04/26/11--21:45: :'( (chan 2112470)

I really really dislike this..




04/26/11--22:24: Photo (chan 2112470)






04/27/11--02:18: Go on and hold your head high  (chan 2112470)





Go on and hold your head high 




04/27/11--03:43: 3% out of 100% (chan 2112470)

Everyday for me seems to get much worse. Nothing I do is making me happy. I’m really sad I’m saying this but hanging out with friends doesn’t make me happy at all anymore. My laugh, my smile, basically all of me is fake around them :/

I’m mad at the world but I know the world didn’t do anything wrong. I’m depressed about the situation I am in. This shouldn’t of happened. I’m supposed to be happy right now. I’m supposed to have her in my arms. Instead I’m alone in my room every night missing everything. It really hurts me. A lot. I don’t know how I am able to handle all this pain and stress I have going on right now. I would like think that it is because of this little angel we have watching over us.  Actually, I know our little angel is the reason why I am able to handle what is going on right now. I think about him/her everyday and it hurts knowing that it was my fault. I blame myself all the time. No matter what I am told, I know that it was my fault.

I wish I could of seen your face. I’m so sorry that this happened. I tried my best and it didn’t work. In doing so, I lost you both. 

My dreams have become nightmares. I wake up crying, screaming, yelling, hitting, or not breathing. This has never in my life happened. Now I am afraid to sleep so I just stay awake as long as I can and sleep for only 3 or 2 hours. Just so I won’t have a nightmare. 

I still remember everything that was said. I would like to believe that what was said still means something but I feel like it is slowly fading away. I can only hope it isn’t. I know in my heart what I promised has not ever faded one bit. I still believe in all of it and I will continue to believe for as long as I promised. I never left.

At times I close my eyes and I swear I could feel you. For that brief moment I know you’re with me. It brings me a bit of joy when that happens. But when my eyes open you’re gone and feeling you was only a dream. Will I ever feel your touch again? For now I know I won’t. I can only pretend to.

I recently came upon a song called Impossible by Kate Earl. Listening to it gives me hope. It’s not much but even the smallest amount of hope can make things so much better. She is basically talking to me-well singing-and telling me that nothing is impossible. 

Everything will be ok. I just know it. My heart and angel tell me so. 

Do me a favor and smile for me.




04/27/11--17:28: I wish I could speak to you.. (chan 2112470)

but I have to follow the rules :/




04/27/11--17:35: I feel so alone and helpless right now :/ (chan 2112470)

I feel so alone and helpless right now :/